Merry Christmas !!!!

Have a GREAT Christmas everyone !!!

Beautiful Rainbow

Saw this today and thought of You My Love i miss You already only 2 days left Love You

Finally… iPhone 4 !!

My new mobile phone and it cant get anybetter

For years i´ve been hearing how awesome Apple products were and i can say that all of them were damn right!!!

iPhone is a wonderful and i dare say perfect phone , im still exploring it and im already amazed !

thanks to my lovely girlfriend that gave it to me as a earlier christmas gift

The Avengers (May 2012)

Can not wait for this one next year !!!

After seeing Iron Man(1&2) , Hulk(it´s a shame Edward Norton wont be Hulk) , Thor and Captain America this movie will be amazing to say the very least

For those who didn´t saw it yet here it is

R.E.M (1980-2011)

Great band , great songs and a band that will be missed for sure!

Saw them once on January 7th 2005 in Lisbon and it was an amazing show

A great loss to the music world in general !!

Favourite songs : Nightwimming , Man on the moon , To the One I love , Losing my religion , Everybody hurts , Imitation of Life , The great Beyond and many many more

Pearl Jam Twenty Review

Saw it last night on theatres here in Lisbon and as a fan all i could say is that i was blown away by the whole movie.

I left the theatre wanting to see them live again and fully understanding why i love them the way i do , it´s something that it cannot be explain , you have to feel it  , no words can describe it:)

As a whole the movie covers mainly the birth of Pearl Jam  , all the struggles they went through after the rise to the top , the battle with ticketmaster and the tragedy of roskilde in 2000(where 9 people died) to these days…

There was so many highlights…from the sad story of Release , to the Single´s Party , the formation of the band after the dead of Andy Wood , Stone Gossard finding a dusty grammy in the basement of his house (LOL) , Eddie chocking up when talking about his friendship with Jeff…there are to many to name really

It was truely an awesome experience to the point of when a video of betterman live at madison square garden came on i was taken back to september 5th 2006 when i saw them in lisbon (my 2nd time seeing them) and i was in the balcony seeing 20.000 people sing the chorus.
That “image” somehow re-appeared yesterday during that part and it was september 5th 2006 all over again…just an amazing amazing feeling

Although it was the end of the movie that really gave me goosebumps and that performance of Alive , there are really no words to describe what i felt , i couldnt stop smilling the whole time and thinking “this is why i love them…best fuckin band in the world and without any single doubt the band of my live…i dont know how to say it words but this is it right here! This feeling …it´s this…” to some might seem over the top but to me it isnt…

Thanks for all the (great) music Pearl Jam.
Thanks for all the answers i got out of it that helped me understand myself a lot better to this day…still does to be honest
Thanks because of you , i´ve met the woman i wanna spend the rest of my live with and love with all my heart each and every day.

Optimus Alive 2011 – Day 1 Review

Another edition of (in my opinion) the best music festival in Portugal. This year and to celebrate its 5th year it was added an extra day to the festival , in my opinion only to able to bring Coldplay but im not complaning because im a huge coldplay fan

This year´s headliners were Coldplay , Foo Fighters , 30 Seconds to Mars and Jane´s Addiction and all of them were big names but the biggest difference from this years edition was that the undercard on the main stage was not as strong as other edition , the only day that had that was the Foo fighters day with bands like Iggy Pop , Xutos e Pontapes and My Chemichal Romance (im not a fan but they have quite a big fan base).

I went to Day 1 , 2 and 3 so i will be only reviewing those days of course So without any futher a due(cause it´s been 2 months since it ended) here it is

Blondie

It was a good show ,  im not a blondie fan but i knew a couple of songs(who doesnt lol) and to my surprise Debby Harry still moves quite well on stage and does put a good show! The lead guitarrist seemed pretty good with some good solos. As i said above it was a good show and they even did a beastie boys cover when they performed “you gotta fight for your rights to party” which was a surprise.

Coldplay

The reason why i was going to this day.

The last time i saw the  in Lisbon was in the X&Y Tour in 2005 so i was hoping for a great show from them and so it was

After seeing them live at Glastonbury via webcast i sorta knew what songs were be played since they are not a band that changes their setlist very much but even knowing that i was truelly overwhelmed by the whole show!

The new songs sounded great specially “Charlie Brown” and of course the new single “Every Teardrop is a Waterfall” but to me the highlight of the show was “Viva La Vida” with that simple yet beautiful piano intro

To me (from the shows i´ve seen) it was the best concert of this years festival even though Foo Fighters were a very good surprise and an awesome show but that is for the next post

In conclusion here is the coldplay setlist :

01 – Mylo Xyloto
02 – Hurts Like Heaven
03 – Yellow
04 – In My Place
05 – Major Minus
06 – Lost!
07 – The Scientist
08 – Shiver
09 – Violet Hill
10 – God Put A Smile Upon Your Face
11 – Everything’s Not Lost
12 – Us Against the World
13 – Politik
14 – Viva La Vida
15 – Charlie Brown
16 – Life Is For Living
Encore Break
17 – Clocks
18 – Fix You
19 – Every Teardrop is a Waterfall

9/11/2001 : The day the world changed…

Today marks the day the world changed…and it was 10 years ago…

My feelings goes out to all the people that died that day and to all americans in general.

It still gives me cold chills watching it all out on tv , so i cannot imagine how horrible it must have been for you.

One day i will be in New York (currently saving for it) to pay my condolences in the memorial.

Pearl Jam Twenty Tickets!!! \o/

 

just bought them!!!

Here we go!!! September 20th !!!! \o/

Undiscovered Soul

While erasing my usb pen today i ended up on my poems folder and read a few of them (most of them are from my “dark times” ) but this one is probably my best auto biographical poem i´ve written to this day.

i´ve even made acts inside it…it also showed me how much i´ve changed to this day from being so depressive and sad…it was quite a long long road believe me…

its a VERY long poem , so to anyone who has enough patience here it is!

Undiscovered Soul

I -> Sun’s Street , the center of the world

I’m the one that almost died
The undiscovered soul
That many found
And kicked away

Born in the middle of the unknown
Lost in the middle of nowhere
At the first ray of light of an unknown year
My alley is my home but I’ve never really
Looked at it as mine because I always stayed home

I’m overjoyed with fun
and I’m really happy
I care about nothing
because there is nothing
to worry about

these streets are full of kids just like me
and it should be so sad as I don’t know any of them
but I don’t care about it
guess this is what it´s supposed to be
I’m not alone as the few friends I have
are enough for me

so I spend my days locked at home
watching tv and the world is such a beautiful place
I don’t care if I’m alone
it never really made any difference to me

II -> The Shadow Of A Dark Future

Another day, another ride
and I hope not to see them
I wish I had the power to fight them back
but here they come again
and here is me on the floor one more time

I’m kinda happy today
seems to me that some people actually like me
but why do I sense that the rest of the school
hates me and laughs at me?
I never did anything to them!!

I wish I was a demon
a rebel with an allmighty army
I would take this forsaken place by storm
make everyone bow at my feet!!
and then everyone would stop treating me like shit!!

I don’t have anyone now
and I wish I had
my so called best friend
doesn’t even talk to me anymore
and he lives just a block away

I don’t know what to do
and I’m repressing all of this inside of me
Am I gonna blow like a nuclear bomb
or am I gonna be alright
and this will be just a vague memory of what I lived here?

3 years had now passed
I’m not sad to leave this place
funny how everyone says goodbye to one another
and I’m here all alone…after all it was true
no one ever really seemed to care about me…

III -> The Inevitability Of Life

Here´s to a new start
everything is different now
and I will start all over again
nothing can bring me down
because no one from that forsaken place
is here now

Things are so different here
I’m trying to adapt myself
and I love this new sense of freedom
you can do whatever u want
and no one will find out…or so I think

My new class mates are really weird
most of them have already lost several years…
I hope I don’t turn out like one of them

I’m starting to feel alone again
I don’t seem to fit in
and I think no one cares
so I disappear…

A year lost…and I hope I´ll get it right now
I feel really good this time and I like it in here with my friends
Months have passed
and why am I starting to get the feeling that my friends
laugh behind my back?

Another friday afternoon and the weekend is right around the corner
and then all of a sudden a friend
asks me if I’m going out with them tonight…

It’s kinda funny how my fears all of a sudden jumped outta of water
seems to me that I’m the so called friend for those times
when I’m actually needed and as I lay down my head tonight
all I can think is the lame jokes about me and the years I lost till this very day
and the fact that all pictures with me on them
were magically erased…

the truth is that I don’t need friends like those
all these years led to this
I don’t have any true friends
and I’m all alone again…

IV -> I Dont Care!!!… Or Should I Care??

Another sleepless night
another set of tears shed
here in the dark of my room
feeling so weak and powerless
feeling ready to die in peace

I lost everything I once believed in
all I got is myself ready to be broken in two
but I don’t care and I will never show this to anyone
I´ll no longer be betrayed and I am my new
and only friend!!

The days go on and on and I feel miserable inside
I’m starting to feel I don’t belong in this place
and somehow I have got to get out

Every time I fall in love
the feeling just turns to ashes
I’m sick and tired of all this
I HATE MYSELF , I HATE MY FACE , I HATE MY SMILE
I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT ME!!!!!!

If I’m destined to be alone so be it
I will turn into a rock and no one will ever like me again!!
and so another year I think has come full circle
and my head has only one thought in mind….DEATH!

I’m tired of living my life
I even spent the last 365 days
figuring out ways to take my life away
but in the end
I don’t even have the courage to go through that!
what a fucking loser I turned out to be!!!

I’m ugly as a redneck’s ass
my life is broken and shattered into a million pieces
and I don’t even have the guts
to finish myself for good

guess this is destiny
and no one seems to notice how dead I really am
I try to smile… as always
but it’s so hard to smile
when I seem to be the only person
that believes in me!!

V – The Aftermath Of A Self-Inflicted Solitude

My life has passed me by
7 long years have kept me locked
in a dark prison
made of no locks

I´ve been away from society
afraid of getting hurt once again
waiting for death to come rescue me
from a life I never wanted

I walked unknown streets day and night
trying to hide the tears
trying to hide the pain
making friends with invisible shadows

I always thought that if I was alone
I would be happy and that no one could betray me
but being alone is just painful
and my mind is starting to play tricks on me
showing and making me think
about things that no man should

I lost so many things
things I will never get back
I can try to pretend all of this never happened
but it’s impossible

This is way to heavy
for me to even try to deny
it changed me completely
it changed everything in me

The signs of a once happy teenager are long gone
and now all I am is just a sad boy
with stolen dreams, burned thoughts
a shitload of fears and a reaped heart

All of this is somehow my fault
I was the one who made the wrong choices
and now that I´ve survived hell
I realize what I put on the line
my body and soul almost died
but somehow I’m still here….

VI -> The Dawning Of A New Morning

Sunny weather today
seems like another random day
many years have passed and I’m starting to be aware
of what´s around me

Maybe I should try to get out of my cage
maybe I should just try one more time
to be what I once was
a very long time ago

But I’m just too strange and too shy
I can try to live in society
but I’m not sure if I know how to do that anymore
I know that maybe now there are a couple people
that seem to be actually willing to help me

At least I know I trust them
because they don’t judge me
and they seem to trust me
they seem to accept me for what I am
maybe that’s what true friends do for each other

I just hope my fears fade away this time
and I don’t end up disappointing anyone
that’s something I always keep in mind

Guess this is a new dawn for me
for my life and for my dreams
I know I got true friends now
that may not live close to me
but I know I´m always in their heart
as they are in mine

to be honest I never thought
I would survive what i went through
I always picture myself dead
way before turning 35
but now that just seems to be an illusion

this is the dawn of a new morning for me
the dawn of hope
the dawn of my new life…

VII -> What Lies Ahead?

U can take back all those fears
tell my ghosts to stay dead
I’m out of that place
it was hard so hard but I got it right

I don’t see things black and white anymore
everything seems to be colorful nowadays
so just take a look around to feel what I feel now

I don’t know the future
but I will live my life the best way I can
regrets are a part of my past
I suffered a lot and that sure as hell changed me
but I can’t bring that pain here now

Just to breathe this fresh air
reminds me of a young kid I met so many years ago
a kid with no fears
a kid wanting to live his life the best way he possibly could

and that’s what I really want now
I´ve finally realized that the things
I lost and never lived will never return
and I can’t be here sitting and waiting for that to happen

I´ve to live
I´ve to dream
what lies ahead? I don’t have clue
but as long as I have faith in me
and as I open my eyes to life
I see a beautiful sunshine
and a shy smile gets drawn in my face
as I feel the wind touching it

Written by : Pedro (file on usb pen dates 02/04/2006)